I am the reality for which all of these things that you read on my blog is just a shadow. You don't want to embrace the shadow and miss the reality.
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As you know my heart desire is to go to Cape Town South Africa during there summer months. I can only do this with your help. I need a person or persons that work with a international airline to help me fulfill this dream. I need for someone that can help me in the accomodations when I get there. I need for all of my people to help me.
A "DONATE" button has been set up for this project. I would like to go in celebration of my 46th birthday August 16th. Please only positive thinking, dream makers with the ability to help, serious inquiries is expected. This is for real. I am not playing. I am not bullshitting.
I understand that it is about a 16 hour flight. I also need for those that have been over there to educate me on all the documents and the requirements that I will need to meet before this journey.
I was told to get to know this artist. I am in the process of looking at the DVD. So far this is my favorite scene on the DVD but I am told to listen to the song "For the Lovers". I shall because I am very obedient.
I LOOKED AT THIS PICTURE FOR FIVE MINUTES AND ASKED MYSELF "WHAT WOULD THEY SAY ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON TODAY? WHAT WOULD THEY SAY ABOUT HOW WE TREAT EACH OTHER? AND WHAT WOULD THEY SAY ABOUT THE DISRESPECT OF OUR PRESIDENT?
I IMAGINE THAT ONE WOULD SAY "WHAT IS ALL THIS FUCKERY". THE OTHER WOULD SAY "WHAT DID I TELL YOU ABOUT THE FIELD NEGRO AND THE HOUSE NEGRO" AND THE OTHER WOULD SAY "ALL THAT WORK I DID AND GAVE Y'ALL THE BLUE PRINT AND STILL THE NEGRO ISN'T FREE.
(FOOT NOTE): THE WORD IS NEGRO MEANING BLACK. REFERRED TO THE BLACK MAN. ON MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE IT SAY "A NEGRO MALE". DON'T GET IT CONFUSED WITH THE MADE UP WORD NIGGA. ANY PERSON OF ANY RACE CAN BE A NIGGA. A STRONG, POSITIVE, RESPECTFUL BLACK MALE IS A NEGRO. THAT IS HIS RACE. NOT AFRO AMERICAN. NOT AFRICAN AMERICAN. IT'S EITHER BLACK OR.....WELL, TO KEEP YOU SAFE IF YOU HAVE TO DESCRIBE THAT MALE....SAY "A BLACK MALE". THAT WAY YOU WILL LIVE TO SEE A BRIGHTER DAY. DON'T GET DRUNK OR LOOSE YOUR TEMPER OR EVEN THINK THAT YOU ARE SO DOWN WITH AND COOL WITH BLACK PEOPLE AND FUCK AROUND AND SAY NIGGA OR NIGGERRRRRRRRRRRRRR. YOU MAY LEARN A PAINFUL LESSON OF RESPECT. YOU MIGHT EXPERIENCE A LOST. (END FOOT NOTE).
I got this message on Facebook that made tears come from my eyes. It was real and I felt it way over there from Cape Town South Africa.
"Hi My name is W...a Huge fan of your blog. I enjoy your balance in life. I am all the way from Cape Town South Africa. I am a Non Hodgkin's survivor myself and been in remission for the last 8 + years. You look like an amazing guy to have as a friend. Wow and i Love black foreskins...lol. With so much Love and Respect from South Africa. I see you are planning to visit our beautiful town. You will really enjoy it. Sometimes you are so close to the city and an 1hr away you are captured between the sea and the beautiful scenery of landscape. There are so many beautiful things to see and do. I work in Stellenbosch- which is the heart of the wine lands. Wonderful cuisine and wine awaits you...beautiful people and animals awaits you. Wonderful cultures and history awaits you. With love from Africa...W"
SOMEBODY APPRECIATE MY BLOG. AND HE PAID ATTENTION TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY. THANK YOU WITH MY WHOLE HEART W.
THE DUDES ARE WORKING IT. LOVE THE PART WHEN THEY CAME OUT AND PUT THEIR HANDS ON THEIR HIPS. WAIT A MINUTE..WHY DID SHE JUST MADE MY DICK HARD OR WAS IT THE WAY THE BOYZ MOVED:
I HAVE MUCH RESPECT FOR ALL STYLE AND TYPE OF MUSIC...HINT MUSIQUE. THIS DUDE HAVE SOME MADD SKILLS. I UNDERSTOOD EVERY WORD HE RAPPED. I AM A OLD SCHOOL, BLUE LIGHTS IN THE BASEMENT, 60'S, 70'S AND THE AWESOME 80'S TYPE OF GUY. RAPPING IS SOMETHING THAT I NEVER COULD UNDERSTAND (LYRICS THAT IS) BUT I ENJOYED THIS AND I HOPE SOMEONE GIVES HIM A SHOT AT RECORDING IT.
Zeal is simply another word for passion. I've noticed that too many people today have lost their passion and enthusiasm for life. At one time, they were excited about their dreams and got up every day with purpose and passion. But now, because time has passed and they've experienced disappointments, they're not excited about those dreams anymore. They've lost their fire. You weren't meant to live a stagnant, ordinary life.
The truth is, most of life can be very routine. We have to work to keep things fresh. We have to put forth effort to stay passionate about our jobs, relationships.
Today I'm telling you to "fan your flame!" In other words, don't let the fire go out. Stay passionate about your life so you can move forward and embrace your dreams.
I was looking at news last night and I saw where a Police Officer was killed in the line of duty by a drunk driver. This morning at 7am I got a call from a fellow Officer that told me who it was and I was stunned. After hanging up with him her sister called me frantic, the Police department had just contacted her.
I have known this Officer for 20 years and when I say one of the pure in heart persons in the world...she is that image. She had just got on duty morning, watch at 22:30 and was killed at about 23:00...30 minutes after roll call.
"Atlanta police identify officer killed on interstate"
Atlanta police were mourning a fellow police officer who was struck by an alleged drunk driver and killed late Tuesday night.
Senior Police Officer Gail Thomas, a 15-year veteran of the force, was assisting another officer with a traffic accident on the Brookwood Interchange ramp from I-75 southbound to I-85 northbound, and had just gotten out of her patrol car when she was hit, APD Chief George Turner said.
The Zone 5 morning watch officer had just started her shift when she was hit. Thomas, 46, died at the scene.
The driver whose vehicle hit the officer, 22-year-old Chasity Jones of Stone Mountain, was charged with driving under the influence, homicide by vehicle, 1st degree and reckless driving, according to Atlanta police spokesman Carlos Campos.
According to police, Jones registered a .16 on a breath test administered at the scene, but refused consent for a blood alcohol reading. However, a search warrant was obtained and blood was retrieved at Grady Memorial Hospital.
Jones was booked into the Fulton County Jail and is expected to go before a judge Thursday morning, according to Tracy Flanagan, a spokeswoman for the jail.
Turner said the incident left the officer's colleagues shaken.
"As you can imagine, there are a lot of very raw nerves and emotions," he said. "We are very concerned about the family, and also about our family. We encourage our officers to depend on each other and to seek out help."
Officer Katie Riester, who lowered the flag outside Atlanta police headquarters to half-staff Wednesday morning, remembered her fallen colleague as a “great police officer” who “loved policing.”
“She will be so missed by everyone here,” Riester said.
“She was such a sweet person,” Riester said. “Her smile was just infectious; she could just brighten up a room.”
Former Atlanta police Major John Woodard, who once supervised Thomas, agreed, telling the AJC in an e-mail that the officer "always had a smile on her face."
"Gail was one of the nicest people that you would ever want to meet," Woodard said. "Her death will leave a hole in the hearts of those who knew her."
Mayor Kasim Reed called Thomas a "veteran police officer whose sense of duty and commitment to public safety inspired many of her fellow officers."
This was one of the good police officers. She loved her friends and her family with her whole heart and she loved strong. I know, I am one of them.
A few of you know that I have been trying to get over there to Santo Domingo. My friend Anthony over there at www.monaga.net keeps me informed on all areas of this country. I will be contacting him about my travels. He is great with info if you are going that way. Check out his blog for the eye candy...LOL. Anyway, I was having dinner last night at my best friend's house when he had this dude from Santo Domingo visiting. This dude was beautiful like he was formed from the red clay of Georgia.
Very nice dude. He taught me a little Spanish. I learned dog, cat, girl, boy, man, woman, horse and car. I learned how to understand them in a sentence. We talked about his country and he took me to his country in the spirit. He told me the good, the bad and the ugly about the people and visitors. But I could have told him the same things about the people and visitors of any city in the U.S.A.
He told me that the things that we consider nothing is great to them. He told me that if I came over with some bath wash and had a man friend visiting...he said that there is a chance that when he leave my bath wash will be missing. That was just an example that he used to show me how bath wash is not important to me but is a treasure to them.
I have put this island on my "things to do" this year. I have been all around this island but never stopped. I also wanna visit Haiti. This island is on the backside of DR. There is so much I am going to do this year.
After talking and drinking with him until the wee hours of the morning...I got up excited about reading about this place. I went straight to Anthony's blog and got educated.
So, I was going to borrow some pictures from him to post on my blog but I would rather for you to go over there and see for yourself....that's all I gotta say....ENJOY!
THIS IS TRULY HOW SOME PEOPLE IN ATLANTA LIVE. I KNOW PEOPLE THAT REALLY DO HAVE THIS LIFESTYLE. I KNOW A FEW IN THIS CLIP. I DID NOT MAKE THIS LIST. IT IS LIKE THE GAY MALE VERSION OF HOUSEWIVES OF ATLANTA:
The handshake is initiated when the two hands touch, immediately. It is commonly done upon meeting, greeting, parting, offering congratulations, expressing gratitude, or completing an agreement. In sports or other competitive activities, it is also done as a sign of good sportsmanship. Its purpose is to convey trust, balance, and equality.
A lot of betrayal and backstabbing is done by this simple gesture. Once upon a time your word was all you needed to represent you honesty and loyalty. It was sealed by a hand shake which is a empty right hand which indicates that you can be trusted or that you mean no harm. Some people greet each other with a kiss. Some have also been betrayed by a kiss.
But now that handshake can make you sick. Someone can pass a germ or bacteria to you that you then pass to someone else and so far and so on. People do not take the proper care to wash there hands. This has made many of us sick and have caused people with weaken immune system to come very close to the ultimate sacrifice....all stemmed from a handshake.
I do not shake hands freely. I will give you a pound (that is a closed fist tapping another closed fist). When I am in a professional situation where a handshake is proper...I discretely use my hand sanitize.
I am very paranoid anyway when it come to bodily contact. I sometimes have to take a very hot shower after I have jacked off with someone and we didn't even touch each other, there was no exchange of bodily fluids. We were on different sides of the room.
I went in this little sex place here in Atlanta for the first time this weekend on a dare and was in there about 5 minutes and left...came home feeling like I had un-named germs on me that the CDC needed to study. I took a shower to no satisfaction. I had to resort to taking a Micheal Jackson bath (A sit down in the tub with a 1/2 cup of bleach)called a sitz bath with epsom salt.
I guess I am a bit of a germaphobe.I never have been a touchy, feely person. All I want is the best for you. To keep you health conscience. So when I meet you or greet you please don't be surprised if I greet you with a hug. Not a phony church hug but a brotherly hug that you can feel that it is real.
As I shared with you in a earlier post that I would like to visit Africa. I wanna have my plans finalized and ready for travel sometime this summer for my 46th birthday this year August 16th. I will need your help, for those that have the same vision for with me out of love for me to help me see this through.
My friend from Facebook that lives over there gave me some info this morning. He said "hi how you doing man.you know i'm a big fan of yours .tune in everyday to read your blog and i could not believed my eyes when i saw our flag.so when do you plan on visiting my country south africa?cant wait to meet you in person. Cape town the mother city also known as the pink city.cape town is like atlanta mostly gay people.cape town is one of the seven wonders of the world.and you also must visit robben island thats where nelson mandela was for 27 year(prison).plus we have plenty of nude beaches and gay nude beaches which is called clifton beach.oprah winfrey 's school is in soweto. dont forget about the wild life and the safaris. you can evn go on the whale cruises and shark cage divingthe best to visit is summer".
The conversation with him almost had me hearing the sounds, smelling the air, and talking to the people. This my dream, this my quest, and with my determination and the will to see this country and have this experience will make my dream a reality.
(The picture are Robben Island maximum security prison: exterior (left) and interior (right)
Nelson Mandela's isolation cell with some of his artifacts).
I was put on notice that a coward posted a negative comment on one of my friends blog and that I should check it out. I did and it only encourage me to write more because this babbling idiot keeps reading my shit when he hates the person that he only reads about. He does not know me but I have so much power in his life that he can not see straight after reading my post. I say to him Thank you and keep reading...Enjoy and welcome aboard.
Later this evening I was chatting with one of my most important blogger friends and he made a statement to me that gave me the "PHUCK YOU" attitude to all those negative people that has a miserable life and take their rage out on bloggers that has no problem being who they are.
Lets keep my friend a secret and call him...hmmmmmmmm, NAS. The conversation went like this.
*NAS: I am like this if I come to your blog and there's something you post that I don't like I don't comment. I leave it be. Not everything is for everyone all the time I am VERY straight forward and to the point. Can't blog to please the public.(end).
So with that being said and the comment that my friend Peter made in my defense....To all of you that have something negative to say about my shit but still reading it....PHUCK YOU AND KISS MY ENTIRE ASS...BITCHES.
Thank you NAS and like I told you earlier...You are a Teacher, I Demonstrate. A perfect team.
Hello, I am a first time reader and I have stayed up all night and most of the day reading your blog and comments. You seem like a cool guy. I was listening to this song and thought of you. I change the words "POP MUZIK" and sang "PIMUSIQUE". It it is a song by a group name "M". (Play video and sing alone)
The lyrics are:
Pop, pop, pop muzik Pop, pop, pop muzik
Get up Get down
Pop, pop, pop muzik Pop, pop, pop muzik
Radio, video Boogie with a suitcase You're living in a disco Forget about the rat race
Let's do the milkshake You're selling like a hot cake Try some, buy some Fee fi fo fum
Talk about pop muzik Talk about pop muzik
(Shoobie doobie doo wop) I wanna dedicate it (Bop bop shoo wop) Everybody made it (Shoobie doobie doo wop) Infiltrate it (Bop bop shoo wop) Activate it
New York, London, Paris, Munich Everybody talk about pop muzik Talk about pop muzik Talk about pop muzik Pop, pop, pop muzik Pop, pop, pop muzik
Sing it in the subway Shuffle with a shoe shine Mix me a Molotov I'm on the hit line
Wanna be a gun slinger Don't be a rock singer Eenie meenie miney moe Which-a-way you wanna go
Talk about pop muzik Talk about pop muzik
(Shoobie doobie doo wop) Right in between me (Bop bop shoo wop) Me, me, me, me (Shoobie doobie doo wop) Right in betweenie (Bop bop shoo wop) You know what I meanie
Hit it!
Now you know what to say:
Talk about pop muzik Talk about pop muzik Pop, pop, pop muzik Pop, pop, pop muzik
All around the world Where ever you are
Dance in the street Anything you like Do it in your car In the middle of the night
La la la la la la la la la La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la La la la la la la la
Dance in the super mart Dig it in the fast lane Listen to the countdown They're playing our song again
I can't get "Jumping Jack," I wanna hold "Get Back" Moonlight Muzak, Knick knack paddywhack
Talk about pop muzik Talk about pop muzik
(Shoobie doobie doo wop) It's all around you (Bop bop shoo wop) They wanna surround you (Shoobie doobie doo wop) It's all around you (Bop bop shoo wop)
Hit it!
New York, London, Paris, Munich ( From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/m/m-lyrics/pop-muzik-lyrics.html ) Everybody talk about, mm, pop muzik Talk about pop muzik Talk about pop muzik Pop, pop, pop muzik Pop, pop, pop muzik
Listen Talk about
Pop, pop, pop muzik
Talk about
Pop, pop, pop muzik
Talk about The fever
Pop, pop, pop muzik Pop, pop, pop muzik
Do you read me Loud and clear Pin it down Pin it down Oh no! Oh no! Everybody made it Shoobie doobie do wop Infiltrate it Pop pop shoo wop Activate it
New York, London, Paris, Munich Everybody talk about pop musik Talk about, pop musik Talk about, pop musik Pop pop pop pop musik
Singing in the subway Shuffle with a shoe shine Fix me a molotov I'm on the headline
Wanna be a gun slinger Don't be a rock singer Eenie meenie mynie moe Tell me where you wanna go
Talk about, pop musik Talk about, pop musik
Shoobie doobie do wop Lyin' in the tree (?) Pop pop shoo wop Eenee meenie Shoobie doobie do wop (?) Pop pop shoo wop You know what I mean
Hit it...
Now you know what to say...
Talk about, pop musik Pop pop pop pop musik
All around the world wherever you are dance in the street anything you like do it in your car in the middle of the night
La la la la la la la la la La la la la la la la
Dance in the supermart Dig it in the fastlane Listen to the countdown They're playin' our song again
I can't get jumping jack I wanna hold - get back (?) Moonlight muzak (?) Knick knack patty whack
Talk about, pop musik Talk about, pop musik
Shoobie doobie do wop It's all around you Pop pop shoo wop Gonna suround you Shoobie doobie do wop It's all around Pop pop shoo wop
Hit it...
New York, London, Paris, Munich Everybody talk about pop musik Talk about, pop musik Talk about, pop musik Pop pop pop pop musik
Now... listen... Talk about, Pop pop pop pop musik...
Update: My piercing is 80% healed. I can jack off with it now. It is true that a piercing of my kind gives you a added sensation. Last night while jacking off I have not nutted like that since I was in my 20's...it was so much milk but then again that could have been backed up man cream. But the sensation that I was getting while jacking made my toes pop. I now have to rehab on trying to penetrate with the piercing.
As most of you know from reading and others from experience that I am a Ass Connoisseur, a lover of all things dealing with ass. I have studied, examined, researched and asked professional certified doctors about the ass and it functions and abilities. My PCP (personal care physician) always giving me a anal exam. I think that she just like playing in my booty because every three months she want me naked and on the table. When she does this exam she has to have another physician in the room with her for liability reasons and with my luck it is always another female. I am always saying something when she is doing this. The last time I told her that I left her office frustrated.
How many of you will admit that safe sex is most important. How many of you will admit that you like looking at raw porn instead of a condom sex scene. How many will admit (to yourself) that you like raw sex. Yes, you will offer the protection or require the protection but if you get hott enough you will say to yourself "fuck this, I am taking that dick raw" or "I am fucking him raw". Have you ever been in a situation where you are dude took off the condom and gave you the beat down? That shit was good wasn't it.
How many will admit that you like to be nutted in or like to nutt in someone. Yes, I have done all of these things. I have even told dude that I will fuck you raw and pull out before I nutt. Now, the problem I have with that is the pulling out. I can't. I have tried but my dick take on a demon possessed action and the next thing I know I am loosing my fucking mind and talking plenty shit while trying to make him bust his nutt at the same time.
Can I tell you something and you keep it a secret? I use to mess around with this butch girl. She turned me on because she look like a dude with the short haircut and the mannerism. Well, one night she and I got toasted and she wanted to fuck. I was so drunk I did not even care that she had put on a strap on. She took advantage of me and manhandle me...yeah right. She fuck me with that strap on and I thanked her for it by showing her how to really fuck a dude or her girl in the future. I think that is why T-Girls turns me on. If I ever get in a situation where a T-Girl and I are naked in the same room...all hell and fantasies are going to break loose. Yes, I would let here fuck me. Let me tell you something. If you really wanna be fucked the right was...let a vers bottom or a T-Girl fuck you because they are going to fuck you the way they wanna be fucked. And they both have big dicks.
I can not take a big dick......yet but I am in training. I am better at topping but I am not too bad at bottoming as I am told. One due told me that he does not like fucking me because I make him cum too soon...WTF. And it is true LOL. He and I have been fucking around for years and he always nutt under 5 minutes when in me. He also nutt while going in me. Now, I have seen him fuck other dudes and he beats them down with the dick but when it comes to me.....well, he just bottoms for me now and the oral action.
Okay, that is enough of me telling my personal truths. I have a grooming day today so I have to douche and shower.
I just had the most inspirational, educational lesson about a open relationship. I had heard but never knew anyone this close to me that would admit it. Some are having open relationships and do not know it but my friend Trade from Buffalo just got me all excited when a conversation that we were having took a turn and went right in a direction that caught me off guard. I asked him if I could blog about our conversation and he said okay.
Now, Trade and I have fucked around before. He was the one who made me want my dick pierced when I saw this nipples pierced. He was the one that gave me courage when I was backing out and he also was the one that made a comment about "just wait until you heal". He and I have become good friends. We tell each other the truth, no reason to lie about anything. He is a cool dude. Well mannered and respectful.
This is how the conversation went.
Him: Hey Me: Hey Him: wyd Me: Blogging all day. Him: That's cool, n e plans for tomorrow? Me: Haircut and manicure. How about you. Him: Wanted to see you. Me: you off tomorrow? Him: I'm off at 1pm. Me: Haircut is also at one. Hmmm, where is your boyfriend. Him: Right here. Me: He don't mind you texting. Him: No. Me: You got a open relationship? Him: Kinda yes. Me: That's hott. Him: So when you gone come get your massage. Me: Wait. So if I came over and he was there....that's cool with him? Do you two share people? Him: LOL, he would get jealous kinda and we have had 3sum. Me: Oh my...can I write a blog about this...without your names of course. Him: yes. Me: Cool. Do you all have flip flop relations? Him: yes lol. Me: This is blowing my mind. How does he look? Him: LOL..I'll show u when I see u tomorrow lol. Me: Have anyone ever watched you and he fuck? How long have yall been together? Can I be in a threesome with yall? How old is he? Him: Yes. Not that long but knew one another for a couple yrs. LOL, I'll ask him. He is 31..........
Well, that was the gest of the conversation. The next time will be hands on and on the job training. I have finally met a couple that likes to add a third. This could be something that I can get into often and for a while. Trade is a very attractive 28 year old. I like his walk. I am sure that his partner is on the same attractive level.
It is going to be one of those summers. I always say that I can take dick and that I can't take it long but if things go my way...By June I will be able to hang with the big boyz and learn how to nutt out my ass.
Stay tune for the action that I am sure is going to take place real soon. I told y'all this years was going to be all of that. Oh, I leave for New Orleans in just under 30days. Any New Orleans Saints that reads my blog....lets meet.
This is what my friend K.T.D. from Facebook said that made me watch it.
"up late bored watching myvidster vids, &, i just came across my fav pornstar kidd with antonio biaggi vid on myvidster for the 1st time, yesss love it, Its been a minute since ive seen him do a video before this one,yea kidd definitely got bigger, in a good way,YES!!! One of the BEST Kidd scenes some far!!! Dude was genuinely LOVING that dick yo. He gave me everything. It was so hot at the end when he was like "that dick is so good i swear..please dnt stop..pleeease dont stop. Its so good to me" hmmm sounds what i say, hehe"
A person with expert knowledge or training, especially in the fine arts. A person of informed and discriminating taste: Some of us is gifted in certain arts. I myself has a mean gift in a art that most people think that they are experts at.
I am not a connoisseur of fine wines but I understand that the older the wine the better. Some would apply that to men but I have found out that is not true. I have found out some men act much older than they are and that can be a problem. I also discovered that some younger men act older or mature for their age and that can be attractive and a plus.
I have had my experience with men as cents, five cents, ten cents, a dollar wine prices. I prefer the big money wine because you get perfection. You get class. You get a well aged bottle of great wine.
I said all that to say this. Have you ever talked to someone on the phone or chat and they was excellent with the play on words. Said all the right things at the right time. Sounded good, did not talk like they were a 10/13 (police code for mental disturb person). Then it came the day that you met them and in just in a 24 hour period they changed before your eyes. Actually, they did not change...the real person came out.
People have been in relationships for years and then the relationship takes a dive. He did not change...you saw that in the first 90 days that y'all met but you ignored it because he was fine, handsome, sexy and you were lonely and desperate to be with someone...anyone, so you rolled with the punches in the hope that he may change or you may change him.
It did not happen the way you thought it would did it? You suffered a great deal to save face in front of your friends because you presented this "paradise" relationship when in reality it was just a financial obligation and you did not wanna give up the material things. And now your heart is black as coal. Your basic human feelings are unplugged and the lights are off. You have attitude all the time with any and everyone. You are over all unhappy and bitter.
That is that "cent" wine you purchased. I want the big money (dollar) wine. Now on the flip side of this...it may have been you that I am talking about. You may be that "cent" wine. So, think for yourself. If you always having the same problem with men, it's you. If you always saying "the men in Atlanta ain't no good", it is not the city, it's you and the type of men you draw. You draw to you what you are about (your personality). If you surround yourself with couples or people that have years of good experience in a relationship...then some of that may rub off on you.
If you surround yourself with single people that are bitter then that is the attitude you will learn and those are the type of men you will draw like a magnet because they are in the same arena as you and they are limited in their thinking.
I do not know why my mind went in this direction but this is for somebody.
In the wake of my personal experience on yesterday and of all the other friends that have left....I did some soul searching. "What will people say about me when I am gone? What would I have left behind? Have I helped someone by tell about my experience? What I wanna be to my readers, friends and to those that are really in my circle?"
I wanna be your favorite song that would only bring you joy. But now that you asked I can only wish for more. I wanna be your hero and everyone knows that means the world to me. I just wanna know you. I wanna know you so well that nothing can make me dought you. I wanna sit at your feet so that I hear everything that you sayeth to me. I wanna know you so well.
Often I try to show how much I appreciate you. I do that because so many of us are unappreciative to one another. We take advantage of one another. We miss out on the true person that we are so privilege to have met acquaintance. If they don't look a certain way, act a certain way, have this or have that, a 32 or under waist, light skinned, dark skinned, white, jew or gentile, tall, short, we miss out on someone that could have made a difference in our lives. Yes, I use to be that way in my early to mid 20's. Back then I had a 34 waist, 6'1, 180lbs, I was young and you could not tell me nothing.....but one day, I met this older dude that opened my eyes before I was 28 years old. Now that I look back on it I think that he may have put that gift in me. By his teaching I know have to insight to show others the way I came.
Age doesn't matter. I have friends in there 50's and 60's that still having 20's and 30's year old confusion when it come to dating and finding the person to SHARE happiness with. Some of us are so missed up from our pass that we do not let people too close to us. We are so impersonal. I have offed to meet some and they tell me no, that they like the mystery behind the man. Some might have situation that they can not afford to meet me. Hey, I am only trying to be a friend to you. trying to be that someone that you can rely on.
I think that I need you more then anything. I am a lonely man. Yes, you may read or may have read about the exciting life but at night...I am alone and lonely. Not that I can not get someone it's just that.....I have not met that one yet and maybe I have but in my shallow thinking in pass years I may have looked over him or have taken advantage of him and now all I have is me and my life's lesson.
I did not mean to go into that on this post. I was just thinking out loud. Oh well, now you know a little bit more about me. I removed my sexual experience from the blog because this dude told me one time that he liked me and that he could see us together, then he said that I scare him. That I intimidate him because of my experience. He could call off every single detail of a sexual experience that I posted...down to some key words that I put into telling a story. I took those post out of my blog and just give a hint of what is going on with me.
You know who I am talking about because you have read about him and I. You want a hint???????
ALL OF MY ADULT LIFE I HAVE WANTED TO GO TO AFRICA. EVER SINCE I COULD UNDERSTAND THE MOVIE ROOTS I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO VISIT IS CONTINENT. I WOULD LIKE TO GO OVER THERE NOT JUST TO GO BUT WORK WITH THE PEOPLE, CHILDREN AND BABIES WITH AIDS. I WILL NOT BE OVER THERE LONG ENOUGH TO REALLY MAKE A DIFFERENCE BUT IT WILL MAKE A MARK ON MY LIFE.
ONE DAY BEFORE I LEAVE THIS WORLD...SOMEBODY GOING TO HELP ME GET OVER THERE.
For three years I have been trying to let the natural man come out of me by going to The Folsom Street Fair. Well, since I have pulled all stops out of things that I am going to do this year...this is one that make my dick hard.
In 2012 the world's largest leather event, the Folsom Street Fair®, will take place on Sunday, September 23, 2012 from 11:00 AM to 6:00 PM. We are sure to see the fairgrounds filled with people in their most outrageous leather/rubber/fetish attire enjoying the world's largest and best loved Leather fair.
The Folsom Street Fair is a true San Francisco original. With over 400,000 people in attendance covering 13 city blocks, the Fair is the largest leather/fetish event in the world and the third largest, single-day outdoor event in California. Folsom Street Events is thrilled to celebrate the 28th Folsom Street Fair with style and a week's worth of truly outstanding events and programs over the course of San Francisco Leather Week.
This year, as always, it will be located in San Francisco's South of Market district on Folsom Street between 7th and 12th Streets. [See Map] Donations at the gates and proceeds from beverage purchases will benefit local charities.
Next year, 2013, the Folsom Street Fair® will take place on Sunday, September 29, 2013. Remember the Folsom Street Fair® is always scheduled for the last Sunday in September (2012 excepted).
I took a strong support interest in this project but the support that they needed fell on death ears.
Funding Unsuccessful
This project reached the deadline without achieving its funding goal on December 30. We have got to do better people. I may need to have a talk with Mr. Tyler Perry and ask for HELP with future project of people that look like me and live their lives like me.
"ABOUT THE DL CHRONICLES
The DL Chronicles is an award winning anthology TV series by filmmakers Quincy LeNear and Deondray Gossett that aired on cable TV in 2007.
The DL Chronicles tells the stories of men of color who by consequence and by choice, live sexually duplicitous and secret lifestyles also known as,The Down Low. The "Down Low" is a slang term for men who identify as being straight, but secretly engage in sexual activity with men. More than just closeted, they do not identify as Gay or Bi-sexual and refuse to be associated with the Gay lifestyle or community.
Not only sexy and provocative, it offers a socially-conscious insight into the lines between sexuality and perceived socially acceptable behavior within communities of color. It provides an unapologetic view of intimacy between men and explores these scintillating stories with honesty and integrity.
It was renewed in 2008 and green lit for a second season but was put on hold indefinitely... eventually silently cancelled".
A few posts 1/1/12 back I told you about The Big Boy Pride Event in Orlando in March. Well, time is moving faster towards that date.
Grab ya boyz and bring dat sexy to The Official Big Boy Pride 2012!! The countdown is on 82 days until we take over Orlando. Head over to www.bigboypride.com and get ya spot locked in.
I will be there and I need to see you there as well. Lets have drinks and party together in UNITY.
